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Nariz de cera

anotações e apontamentos que dizem tudo - de, por e para mim - por si mesmos.

Nariz de cera

anotações e apontamentos que dizem tudo - de, por e para mim - por si mesmos.

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21.06.21

he kept thinking of his wife, Betsy, and he wanted to howl. He understood only this: that he deserved all of it. He deserved the fact that right now he wore a pad in his underwear because of prostate surgery, he deserved it; he deserved his daughter not wanting to speak to him because for years he had not wanted to speak to her - she was gay; she was a gay woman, and this still made a small wave of uneasiness move through him. Betsy, though, did not deserve to be dead. He deserved to be dead, but Betsy did not deserve that status [...] 

When his wife was dying, she was the one who was furious. She said, "I hate you." And he said, " I don't blame you." She said, "Oh, stop it." But he had meant it - how could he blame her? He could not blame her. And the last thing she said to him was: "I hate you because I'm going to die and you're going to live."

As he glanced up a seagull, he thought, But I'm not living, Betsy. What a terrible joke it has been. 

 

Elizabeth Strout – Olive, Again (2019)
Penguin Random House UK (2019)

 

 

29 de abril, dia internacional da dança

29.04.17

 

"Se o podre está no fundo repousado, 

A vida está no extremo dos altos bordos, afligida. 

De profundis, clamavi ad te_ ad te, vida inesperada, que 

Nos desesperas e engrandeces. 

 

 

 Maria Gabriela Llansol - O Começo de Um Livro É Precioso
Assírio & Alvim (outubro 2003)